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Have you ever felt like there's this complete emptiness in you? An emptiness, that shouldn't even be there, because you have no idea how to fill, because you don't even know how it got there in the first place. Like at any moment you're just going to break down crying, and you don't know why you're crying. You just know you should be. You know in your heart that something isn't right. That something is bugging you, but you don't want to deal with it, because you're afraid of how much it just might hurt you. But what you don't realize, is not dealing with it, and every second you hold your tears in, you're hurting yourself even more. You're ripping yourself apart inside.

Well, maybe you haven't. But that's how I feel. Now you think since I just broke it all down to you in a science I'd figure out a way to stop feeling like that. But I can't. You see, there's nothing I can do about the thing/person that's causing it. Not a thing, until they go away, if they ever go away. If it ever ends. Until then, I'm stuck. I'm stuck in this empty feeling, and let me tell you, it's the worst I've ever felt. Not even that day in September that caused me to stop liking the boy that I liked for 7 months hurt this bad. Because I knew in my heart that, that pain would pass. But this pain, I don't know when it's going to end, and I can't stop it, and I can't make it hurt anyless. I have to wait it out. And even if I do wait it out, most likely nothing will change, or I'll just end up getting hurt, like I did on that day in September...

Haha, no more lj cuts for my posts just because, I decided i needed a change. I'll still use them occasionally of course. I really need to update my info. It's so old, it's from like july. Alot has changed since then. Well as you know, I went to the mall yesterday, and I got two shirts, shoelaces, a bracelet, and necklaces. It was super. I wanted to go midnight shopping on Black Friday but my mom was like nooo, and it made me sad. But I still got to go to the mall so that made me happy, just because I like to go to the mall. :]

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anyways, well i haven't updated this in about 29380921 years.
but today i am going to the mall! with...my cousins. hahaha, yes i said; my cousins. but yeah. i got highest honors, cause i'm smart like that. but i still hate english with a majorrr passion. and i can't wait till christmas just because, i love it, and i'm hoping to get a dog. :]]
so yeah, i'll be updating this laterrr. <3