Now, I'm up from below.

NEW LIVEJOURNAL!

2007-01-23T15:55:43Z

new livejournal.
woo yay clap clap fun.
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friend me. :]

1013: seriously

2006-12-29T18:54:42Z

It's almost new years eveeeeeeeeeee.
And I have a resolution.
I'm going on this crazy 3 day diet thing. where you're on it three days, and off four.
only difference is, I'm not taking the four days off, so it's just 24 hours a day 7 days a week diet, yanno?
I say I don't want to go back to school, but it's not really that.
I just know that before I go back, I'm gonna have to do my homework. hah.
I hate what we learn in school. I think it's kind of useless.
I mean who cares about The Odyssey, Triginomtry and The History of China in the real world?
We're all just being taught for tests. Not real life.
I mean all of these philosophers we learn about in school, were about learning to live life.
Not learning about living life, and standing still in the process.
But what do I know?
"I know I know nothing, and by knowing that I know most of all."
I can't remember who said that, but it always kinda stuck with me.

ps. my dog's being retarded. and it's getting on my nerves.

Karate: your so emo

2006-12-23T22:17:13Z

Wow, I can't believe that Christmas is in two days.
That's crazy. It actually doesn't feel like Christmas to me.
There's no snow on that ground.
The magic just isn't really there.
I actually noticed that since I was about 8 or 9 when I found out santa wasn't real, the whole magical feeling starts to fade away.
I think I know why parents tell their kids there is a santa.
I think it's because when you fully believe in such a wonderful thing, you get a wonderful feeling you can't get from anywhere else.
You have never ending hope.
Cause you know no matter how rich, poor, or whatever or whoever you are.
As long as you're good, you'll get what you want under that Christmas tree.
Now, when you're older, if you don't. You can just blame your parents and go on a rampage.
But back then as a child, it didn't matter.
And to be honest, it shouldn't matter now.

56: and he's just a dick

2006-12-16T23:46:27Z

I am miserable.
I have been miserable.
It hasn't been good.
I'm happy that Christmas is coming up though, I need it.
I need holidays. I need vacations.
I need an escape.
Sometimes I can't take this town.
Maybe it's not this town, maybe it's this life I can't take.
I haven't decided yet.
Why does this always happen to me?
I already know enough not to let myself get my hopes up too high.
But now it seems even if I get them up just a little, they crash and burn.
I thought he was my 11:11, looks like the clock already turned to 11:12.
~~56: i just dont wanna see you hurt~~
too late, lovie. but thanks for the warning.

ughhhh.

2006-12-10T22:06:41Z

I feel like complete crap.
You don't even know.
Wow, I feel so bad.
Maybe I shouldn't. Maybe I should.
I'm so confused.
And upset.
And I hate it.
I didn't mean to be mean.
I think he hates me.
I'm really sorry.
But I can't like him, because I like someone else too much.

MG1010MG: dildo maniac

2006-12-08T12:02:59Z

sooooo yay two hour delay! how exciting. i really want it to turn into a snowday, but i really don't think it will. but i suppose that's okay. but i did really want to make a snowman. and i wore my pj's inside out and backwards and ran around a trashcan 3 times. no lie. i did it. soooo. i deffinitely think we should get a snowday or all that hard work would've been for absolutely nothing. :[[[

hahaha.

2006-12-02T01:28:21Z

What can I say, I missed writing in them. This was actually a pretty busy week.
I hung out with Jess, Kristy, and Hannah alot, and wonderful Amber on wednesday.
Thursday I went up to the mall with Jess, Kristy, and Hannah and I got my formal dress.
Well...Dresses. I got two. I couldn't decideee. And I still can't. I need help :P haha. I need to know by tomorrow which one I'm going to wear. I was reading the old entries I made over the summer, and they're all pretty stupid. And kinda whiney about how I missed the guy I used to like. I would get a new journal, but I don't really feel like it sooo yeah. Those entries are kind of dumb. butttt. I definitely hate english, and well the group I was put in isn't the greatest, not that I don't like the people in it, I just think we're going to do bad. And the project counts for about 45% of our grade. SO YEAH. but anyways I have more important things to worry about.
like which formal dress to wear.
how so very shallow of me.
haha I have a taped dollar in my pocket. there's random fact, for you. :]

I hear in my mind, all this music & it breaks my heart.

2006-11-27T01:43:08Z

Have you ever felt like there's this complete emptiness in you? An emptiness, that shouldn't even be there, because you have no idea how to fill, because you don't even know how it got there in the first place. Like at any moment you're just going to break down crying, and you don't know why you're crying. You just know you should be. You know in your heart that something isn't right. That something is bugging you, but you don't want to deal with it, because you're afraid of how much it just might hurt you. But what you don't realize, is not dealing with it, and every second you hold your tears in, you're hurting yourself even more. You're ripping yourself apart inside.

Well, maybe you haven't. But that's how I feel. Now you think since I just broke it all down to you in a science I'd figure out a way to stop feeling like that. But I can't. You see, there's nothing I can do about the thing/person that's causing it. Not a thing, until they go away, if they ever go away. If it ever ends. Until then, I'm stuck. I'm stuck in this empty feeling, and let me tell you, it's the worst I've ever felt. Not even that day in September that caused me to stop liking the boy that I liked for 7 months hurt this bad. Because I knew in my heart that, that pain would pass. But this pain, I don't know when it's going to end, and I can't stop it, and I can't make it hurt anyless. I have to wait it out. And even if I do wait it out, most likely nothing will change, or I'll just end up getting hurt, like I did on that day in September...

i've finally stopped using lj cuts. :]

2006-11-25T19:37:15Z

Haha, no more lj cuts for my posts just because, I decided i needed a change. I'll still use them occasionally of course. I really need to update my info. It's so old, it's from like july. Alot has changed since then. Well as you know, I went to the mall yesterday, and I got two shirts, shoelaces, a bracelet, and necklaces. It was super. I wanted to go midnight shopping on Black Friday but my mom was like nooo, and it made me sad. But I still got to go to the mall so that made me happy, just because I like to go to the mall. :]

tim touches tiny toddlers.

2006-11-24T21:54:37Z

hahahahahahaha.
anyways, well i haven't updated this in about 29380921 years.
but today i am going to the mall! with...my cousins. hahaha, yes i said; my cousins. but yeah. i got highest honors, cause i'm smart like that. but i still hate english with a majorrr passion. and i can't wait till christmas just because, i love it, and i'm hoping to get a dog. :]]
so yeah, i'll be updating this laterrr. <3

Don’t believe that the weather is perfect,

2006-09-29T21:24:05Z

I'm so cold right now. serioulsly, i'm like freezing.
but anyways, things have been going good lately.
i believe i am passing all of my classes and wow i'm cold.
my toes are like about to fall off, i am so cold!
so i'm going to pumpkinfest. and jess was supposed to come with me and jazzy.
but now she can't.
so i'm thinking of inviting my cousin danielle possibly?
i don't know. buttttt i pretty much have no plans till then.
i have no life.
but what i do have is a crush on this amazing kid. :]

holy mushrooms.

2006-09-20T23:50:21Z

I haven't updated in so long mangg!

wow, god, i have so much to say but i really don't feel like it.

so i've been in high school for 2 weeks. it's actually been really fun.

i've experienced the worst day of my life,

but i don't like that kid anymore, i like someone else<3 :]

so yay! no more sadness!

i've actually been really happy with my life lately.

i hope i don't jinx myself. :/ that's not cool.

Friday is the first school dance.

woot i'm pumped. <3

oh and updated list of husbands is:

1. Shaun White

2. Johnny Depp

3. William Beckett

4. Adam Lazzara

5. Matt Rubano

6. Matt Friction

7. Nick Simmons.

oh and today is my bestfriend amber's birthday. :]

so HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAY AMBER!&hearts;

oh and Friday September 22, is hubby Adam's birthday. :]]]

PiNk7595: im so emo i cut my tummyy.

2006-08-28T23:48:22Z

plans.
Tuesday - Sleepover at Hannah's.
Wednesday - Still at Hannah's; Oreintation.
Thursday - Mackenzie's House?; Farmers Market.
Friday - Show at the K of C with Libby, Doors at 5, $7 to get in.
Saturday - None.
Sunday - Taking Back Sunday concert!?!?!?!?!?

so...yeah.

hello, how are you?

2006-08-28T18:01:38Z

So on saturday i went to the Kiros concert with hannah oliver & oliver's friend alex.
when ryan saw me, he got up and came right over to me.
and we were all chatting.
and then one time when he came back he had his waterbottle and he poured a little on my head!
i was like "ahhhh!" it was scaryyy.
and then we played a fun game where you tried to knock the other person off they're feet.
let's just say ryan won that game.
it was sad when it overs, cause i'm not sure if i'm gonna see them again.
i hope i do, but it probably won't be for a long while.
so i made sure that i got a hug goodbye. cause i'm gonna miss him.
and the way he messes with my hair.
so there's only 9 days left of summer.
i guess i should make the best of it?
hmph. summer is overrated.

btw i'm back from nyc, obviously.
the ride back was good.
we stopped at carousel on our way backk.
:]]]

i love the little tacos...

2006-08-23T16:08:02Z

So i've been in nyc and i've had a great time :]
i saw my dad and stuff, and i've been going shopping.
so i spent like $330 in hot topic, and like hundreds more in other stores.
and no, i'm not finished yet, i'm sure i'm gonna go over $1000
cause that's just the way i am :P
though i feel like fatass, cause i've been eating so much since i came down here.
i need to stop lol.
So i come back thursday.
friday, possible ice cream with jazzy and dana.
saturday, kiros concert.
sounds good. :]

Everywhere and Everytime...

2006-08-21T22:24:20Z

So I'm in NYC right now!! yay! -does happy dance-
this hotel room is so nice and airconditioned. :]
the ride here was pretty good.
i just sang along with my cd's the whole ride down.
seriously, i never stopped singing :P
cause i'm crazy like that. and i'm kinda weirdly hyper right now.
So i'm coming back thursday.
friday i have to call someone.
saturday is the kiros concert.
and my mom is gonna make a hair appointment to get it permanently straightened, highlighted red, and trimmed.
i can't wait.
tonight we'll probably head to the mall later and do some shopping. the majority of it we'll probably do
tomorrow. i love it here. :]

I'm telling you to loosen up my buttons, babe.

2006-08-20T18:29:47Z

So today is:
THE LAST DAY OF THE GARAGE SALE
from hell.
So I'll be heading to NYC on monday. and I'll be back Thursday.
I can't wait to go shopping. This is my favorite part of the summer.
:]]] ickk, tonight we have to get everything out of the garage.
Go to wal*mart. I have to take a shower&allthatgoodstuff. pack.
and then we're off in the morning.
5-6 hours in the car just listening to music.
I actually like it alot.
I loveeeee riding in cars for long periods of time. is that weird?
hmmm -shrugs- whatev. I'm just glad I'm getting out of oswego.
Last time I left here was may. And that was for school.

As I'm swimming through the stereo...

2006-08-20T18:22:33Z

Brittany has five husbands.

1. Shaun Roger White - September 3, 1986. Virgo. (Snowboarder)

2. John Christopher Depp II - June 9, 1963. Gemini. (Actor)

3. William Eugene Beckett Jr. - February 11, 1985. Aquarius. (Lead singer of The Academy Is...)

4. Adam Burbank Lazzara - September 22, 1981. Virgo. (Lead singer of Taking Back Sunday)

5. Matthew Anthony Rubano - March 10, 1977. Pisces. (Bassist for Taking Back Sunday)

So this post is dedicated to Hubby Adam Lazzara. Cause I love him oh so much.
oh man did you know earlier this year he accidently hit hubby Matt with his microphone while swinging it, at one of the concerts?
matt had to get 6 stitches. :[[

aww he's so cutee.

even emo kids like flavor flaveee.

nose ring<33

what a gorgeous kid & such a pretty smilee. <3 him not the girl :P

whisper's, "hello, i miss you quite terribly."

2006-08-19T16:28:18Z

holy crappppp. just gotta get through today and tomorrow and this
garage sale is overrrrrrrr.
-does happy dance-
okay so like, tomorrow me & my mom have to clean all the stuff out of the garage.
cause on monday we're off to NYC for school clothes shoppingggggg.
i'm so happy cause i love nyc! like more than anytingg.
it's crazy but it's the place i'm the happiest.
i feel like i belong there.
i don't know if it's because i was born down there or what...
but i love it. :]]]]
and i can't freaking wait. :]]]

imissyouquiteterribly.

one last kiss for you...

2006-08-19T01:09:36Z

d00d only two days and this garage sale is overrrr.
thank godddd. i thought i was gonna die from this.
ewww OHS orientation is august 30.
i'm going to nyc soon, for school clothes shopping. yay :]]
tomorrow i am working the garage sale then over to the race track
with danielle&jake. then back to the g-rents. then last day of garage sale :]
i'm up for plans this week. totallayyyy. :]
i want to see Accepted&Material Girls.
i went to the show at the k of c.
i left early, but i liked it. i'll have to go again sometime and stay the whole time
cause i love spending time with libby.
she's so nifty. :] & a pirate.
oooh i want to see Snakes on A Plane too. :]]
i have the cd.

I'm not saying that...

2006-08-15T20:06:19Z

Soo...you already know Shaun White is my husband...
I have a newer one!
William Beckett, lead singer of The Academy Is... = New Obsession.
Soon to come, Even newer husband Adam Lazzara, lead singer of Taking Back Sunday. But no pictures of him in this post.

SMOOCH :*******

DAYYUMNNN, he's fine. ;]

Cause we are living in a material world,

2006-08-15T19:58:24Z

So today I am once again at my grandparents houseeee.
oh joy...not really. NO ONE came to the garage sale.
gah this is such a waste.
ah well at least I get to go to wally world later and get scary movie 4 & hopefully a cd.
Tomorrow i get to see bethany :]
but i don't what time...and i don't if it's just a party or a sleep over!
god i know nothinggg!
I really hope jazzy can come to the show at the k of c. i really want her to go.
bre's friend from nyc natalia wants me to go over to bre's house tomorrow cause bre isn't gonna be around, but because HANNAH ISN'T PICKING UP HER PHONE
i don't know how long i can stay. jeez people need to be around.
especially when i need them :PPP
i'm in the process of applying to _belong but the form is taking me a long time
because i am being a terrible procrastinator...
i wanna see the movies, Accepted and Material Girls. i think they both look really good.
well i'm gonna go. later peeps.

I'm gonna tear your ass up like we just got married...

2006-08-12T21:34:59Z

So i've been busy with the garage sale.
On friday me & danielle worked it, and then bre came back for NC&FL.
So she walked over with Jess, and Me her and danielle and jess hung up some more posters around the city and went to stewerts.
and then me &danielle went back to my g-rents.
jess left bre's and bre came over.
danielle had to leave so i went over to bre and got my schedule ahead of time for school.
I have all good teachers :]]] the only bad part is i have lunch with like NO ONEEE.
so hopefully i will be able to change my lunch.
And then me and bre walked around the city and went to stewerts at 9:30 and we didn't get back till like 11:30 at night, and then we were walking to someone's house just to walk by it and a shooting star went by.
and seriously. we had just been talking about that person and it went by at the perfect time. it was weirddd.
and then we were attacked. again. if you know the story about breanna's woods you'll know what i'm talking about.
it was the same people. and it was pretty creepy.
i was violated. seriously guys. O_O
And now my sales for the garage sale is like $59 bucks and i only had to earn 45 myself to pay for my ticket. so now i'm over yayayyy!!!
but i still have to work it. boooo :[[[
bethhhyyy is coming back and i can't wait to see her i miss her like woah.

&someoneelse.

tell me that you're alright, yeah everything is alright

2006-08-09T22:44:06Z

So today I worked the garage sale for a couple hours.
then me & danielle just shut it down cause no one was coming.
we walked down to waynes to buy posterboard and made more posters to advertise.
tomorrow we have to work the morning shift, and then go and put up posters.
then we are going to farmers.
we're gonna be alone at my grandparents house all night.
can you say party time?
i'm definitely thinking some people should come visit us.
i mean my grandparents do have an in ground pool yanno.
So people call 283-1264 to hang out during garage sale time, poster putting up time, farmers or afterward.
:] love ya.

ok go makes my day.

2006-08-08T20:59:32Z

So today i put up flyers all over the city for the garage sale.
i am wicked tired right now.
and i have to spend the night at my pop-pops house
the garage sale is from august 9th to the 20th.
gah, how gay.
but if i work it i get 5 band tees. and that makes me happy.
18th i'm going to a show at the k of c.
that's also my cousin damian's birthday.
man i'm so tired. and sad.
well tonight i'll watch fuse, play sims 2, read hp 6. and be sad.
sounds like a plan. ://